sex drugs and sleepless nights

i sit on my windowsill smoking a cigarette.
thinking about tomorrow makes my head spin...tonight is all i can handle.
is it hunger? maybe,
all my y´s are z´s.

notes left out elsewhere.

friday night at lux...my first week in berlin coming to a close. Ended up going out to a "drag king femme show" at L.U.X. on Oranienstrasse with R and H, two awesome people I met at SK. Despite the fact that we were definitely in the right area it took us probably an hour and a half to find the place...we ran into Sandra from the Queer & Rebel days at SK on our lost way to the l.u.x. show (this is a city of coincidences and serendipitous meetings, I believe) and picked up this disgusting cherry liquor in little flask bottles from a grocery store. Somehow we made it and the show was pretty ridiculous...Louise (who I had almost joined a scene with the night before with Rei) did a lollipop number and there was a scene with a policeman and two strippers which descended into waving dildos and powerplay all over the bar counter. I was a little out of it but had a good time until I ended up smoking up and then was sick. Made it home late late late.